I have no idea what I'm doing but it's fun

What the hell has this blog come to guys. Whatever it is I'm having more fun than I should >_> I gotta go to work in a couple of hours but I feel the need to waste my time before going because I'm bored LOLOLOL. I feel like I'm doing too much and absolutely nothing at the same time. I wanted to post on instagram but it's been so long since I had my own account, like, posting pictures of normal stuff feels odd for some reason..? Even if I want to? I don't know. I have a lot on my mind lately and work is lowkey draining me but I need to keep going, sigh. In my lat post I said I want to take some time to redesign this blog but I have no idea how to do it. I don't know much about HTML and making it work on this layout without messing it up is even harder. Crazy how I said ''oh I don't know when I'll be posting again'' and now that I started working away I'm posting more than I did when I had nothing much to do LOL. Jk, I was too busy going crazy over art. Speaking of which, it's like the first time ever where I don't feel extremely guilty for not drawing, posting etc. That's crazy. Like yeah, I'm 19 bla bla bla. And so what??? It doesn't even matter and THANK GOD I understood it before completely losing my mind. And I'm glad I'm taking a break from art. I think I got rejected by another convention, and I said ''I think'' because they didn't even take the time to tell me no LOL. Very professional, guys. Very. Professional. And I don't even care anymore, I liked the idea some time ago but drawing for the sole purpose of selling merch of someone else's art in an artist alley is extremely sad. I feel like the art community in general has been making me feel sad and drained. And lonely. Not trying to drag anyone but it's true. So yeah. I'm still drawing but I'm trying to approach it differently. Case closed, now look at this image I found on Pinterest. u.u this is me LOL.

This is the energy I'm bringing into the year I swear. Anyways, my search for a digital camera is still in progress and I didn't find anything. Most of them are either overpriced or broken. High quality pictures are pissing me off, they just don't give the vibe I'm looking for. I'm tempted to use my old iPad camera, get myself an iPhone 4 for like 10 bucks on Vinted or just be a normal person and let things be. Taking pics with my flip phone is still an option. >_> Sigh... I'm free tomorrow, being my one and only free day of the week I need to make the most of it and do another ten thousand things. The most interesting thing I can tell you right now is that I got an YSL mascara and it's the best one I've ever used in my whole life. I don't even know what I'm making this post for and I don't care. I posted another cover on YouTube, certified classic prob 10 times worse than the first one but oh well. I'd have to get paid to care. Also, my first video has reached an unexpected amount of views and even though they'rre not a lot I'm still speechless, because what do you mean more than 4 people watched that??? That's crazy I swear. ANYWAYS HERE IT IS LOLOLOL. No one is allowed to make fun of me because I'm already doing it, sorry. 

Back to whatever I was saying, I'll post some fragrances reviews soon and I also want to show some of the cool visual kei magazines I got. My friend Ari (check out her blog or I'm coming over your house to spray a whole Victoria's Secret body mist on your pillow) got them for me as a Christmas gift, I wanted to post pictures for so long and kept forgetting about it. Amazing. I think it's time to do it because I want to keep them in my archive PROPERLY. u.u Ok, I think I'm done. I've gotta go now, before it gets late. Thank you for reading whatever this was, I need to be stopped before I start having too much fun and turn this blog into a whole mess... muahahaha. It's already fucked up, I fear. Whatever. I can't take myself so seriously anymore. What have you guys been up to recently? Let's chat!

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