Life through my flip phone

I literally refuse to proofread my posts I'm so sorry. Bear with me.

To say that I'm busy would be and understatement and yet I still manage to find myself involved in all kinds of shenanigans EVERY DAY. I have no idea of what is even going on but again, I'm having more fun than I should. Even though lately I feel completely wrecked, my sleep schedule is fucked up beyond repair >_> let's pretend nothing is happening LOLOL. I'll keep blasting music and act normal. Speaking of which, I finally managed to spend some time on the blog layout u.u It's not done yet but I LOOOOVE ITTT!! My friend, Chris, made the music player for me. It’s super cute. I’ve been doing so much stuff I quite literally forgot everything I wanted to talk about in this post. Even the mere thought of responding to texts gives me a headache lately. I can’t stop thinking about the things I have to do, what I WANT to do, chores, work, drawing… sigh. Taking breaks stresses me out even more than anything else, being unproductive is simply impossible if you’re me and I don’t want to waste any time but I feel like if I don’t take a break I’ll DIE. I’m doing everything and feeling like I’m doing nothing. Again. I’m moving so fast I can’t even take a moment to process what is happening. Despite everything, I’m glad I was able to take a few hours for myself this week and even managed to see Giuls. U_U And I remembered to take pics as well. 

 

Ah ah, I wasn't lying. But before I proceed with my life dump and other useless thoughts no one asked for, let me do something I said I'd do in the previous post and completely forgot about: fragrance reviews. Or should I say review to be more precise since it's just one we're talking about lol. Poison Girl by Dior (which shares its name with one of my favorite songs, too). Everyone who knows me also knows that 1) I'm obsessed with perfumes and know too much about them 2) the ''Poison'' line by Dior is what I graduated in at the ''knowledge of useless things that you'll get the chance to talk about probably once or twice in your life'' department of the hyperfixation college. u.u So let's start.

This is THE almond Scandal Le Parfum wanted to be. I swear. If you hate sweet fragrances, this will give you ten headaches at once. Poison Girl came out in 2016, so it's a modern gourmand fragrance. The name literally says all about it, it's a girly fragrance that's probably targeted towards a younger audience but don't be fooled nor let this knowledge stop you from giving it a chance. I usually hate this kind of fragrances, marketed as some ''mysterious'' elixirs that make you feel empowered and then hit you with a thousand differents sweet notes at once (I'm looking at you, La Nuit Tresor) that could kill you in seconds. This is not the case, thankfully. Seeing how much it costs it's the bare minimum. If it was a song it would probably be this one. Appreciate my hard work because I had to dig through my whole mental archive to find it since I haven't listened to it in years. Soo.. back to Poison Girl. I loved it, don't know if I'll actually buy it, but I loved it. It surprised me because I read a lot of negative reviews saying it was ''too sweet'' and while it is sweet, I could actually smell all of it's notes during the whole evolution. It's true that it's a ''girly'' fragrance but it's target audience is not teenagers, I can tell you that. It's cheeky, sweet and dries down into a powdery mix of vanilla, almond, cashmere and sandalwood. I'd even dare to say it's a bit ''sexy'' but probably not in the way you'd think it is. It doesnt project that much but I think iot fits the character of this fragrance perfectly, it's not something you'd wanna wear if your intention is to turn heads while walking down the street but it's a flirty & playful fragrance you could wear on a night out or a date if you're looking for compliments. U_U Girls, I recommend this. It's not the kind of gourmand that makes you smell like you worked two overnight shifts at a bakery back to back but if you're a fan or gourmands you'll probably like this. Also, if you want to try a ''dupe'' (it's similar but more floral) try Olympéa by Rabanne and don't tell anyone I told you this. It's a lot cheaper. (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ (<- face of someone who will probably fall victim of Dior and buy Poison Girl just because she wants to add it to her collection)

Back to what I was saying.. I didn't really do anything special this week but I managed to go out and take some pictures. I decided to send a letter to a friend who lives in China so I bought some cute stuff and some cards. Even though we text everyday I still want to make it special to let her know that she means a lot to me even if we won't meet soon ToT handwriting a letter is a lot more special than just sending a simple message, you really show how much you care by taking the time to write it and everything. I'll print out some pictures on my day off, then I can ship it out eheh. These are the things I bought. The birthday cards aren't for her but it doesn't matter LOL.

I also saw a lot of other cute stuff at the store but my mom had to physically stop me from buying ten thousand different things I'll never need. Besides the stuff I need for my letter I also bought a new journal and I LOOVE it. Look at that. I love pandas, they're so cute sigh... And that thing you can barely see right under the journal is a roll on perfume I got for 1€. It's surprisingly good for it's price and it reminds me of the original ''Classique'' by Jean Paul Gaultier. The one that came out in the 90s I mean. A clean, powdery floral. I use it more than I probably should LOL. I bought it to keep it at hand in my bag in case I forget my perfume thorought the day. U.U I'd definitely buy this again. Moving on... look at these plushies I saw. I'd get one if I had any space left in my room and I hate to say this, but it's time ffor me to say the thruth: I hate plushies. They gather dust like nothing else on this planet and I refuse to wash them frequently. Doing the laundry is a drag already, I’m not planning to wash these biohazards. >.> They're cute tho.

I've been trying out new makeup styles lately but I feel like, in the end, the simple ones are the ones that truly fit me best. Also I need to cut my bangs ASAP before I literally lose my mind. I hate not having bangs, it makes me feel old and boring. I need my whimsy back arghhh!! Also I hate these glasses LOL.

This was pretty much everything to be honest, I don't have a lot to say. I've been rewatching Georide Shore and I have no idea on how I got away with watching it on MTV at 8 years oold without my arents knowing, that's WILD. I need to get into whatever mindset they were in, I swear. Even though I prefer Jershey Shore because Snooki was a style icon. Besides this.. lots of funny things happening but to write them down and make you understand everything, I'd have to document 3 whole years of shenanigans and side quests LOL. At least I'm having fun, I guess..? That's something. I also reached out to my old guitar teacher yesterday and I'm glad I got to talkto him again, it was super nice to reconnect 4 years later. Even though I stopped playing guitar a long time ago, the time we spent playing together still meant a lot to me!! He's a great teacher. Anyways.. I took the magazine pics I promised I'd post but I'll just upload some of them for now, there are too many. I'd have to make a separate post just for them. Let's just say I'm giving you a preview. u.u

I feel like I'm literally the only one left who actually listens to them anymore, LOL. This was on Shoxx vol. 175 which came out in 2007. There are lots of An Café pictures and also a poster. You can find some older scans on archive.org, I think. Anyways... Ari got me this for Christmas and I LOOOVE it so much waaaaa. I loved An Café a lot when I was younger, it was one of the first viual kei bands I discovered and D followed shortly after, but they don't seem to be that popular. This is one of my favorite songs by them. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YYGowuTsRGw&ab_channel=avex

If 7 years old me could know that we got our hands on a legit vkei magazine with An Café right on the cover she'd probably run around the house screaming. It's that type of cool stuff I never thought I'd ever get LOL. Counts as an achievement for me, and ever since I was a little girl I knew that I needed to spend a designated amount of time looking at bandmen everyday. Yup yup. Doing absolutely fucking nothing is very special to me when I allow myself the chance to enjoy it. I reaaaally want to hang out with my friends again soon, sigh... I need to be silly with them ASAP. Browse forgotten blogs and watch music videos from centuries ago. T_T Can we all collectively boycott modern social media and start blogging again?! Logging on Instagram since the AI epidemic feels like getting a life sentence. Sigh. I'll keep focusing on my silly stuff and post on here as much as I can. I'm enjoying blogging a lot more now that I changed the theme and layout, it's still not exactly like I had in mind but I can work with this. Also, what do you think of the music player? I LOVE it, I always wanted one. U_U It's one of the coolest feature to be honest, all socials should give you the chance to add one to your profile. Which song is your favorite between the ones I chose? Ehehe. Also does anyone still listen to T. Mills anymore..? Just me....? Ok. 

What about you guys? What are you up to? Is spring treating you well so far? Also, did you know that the astrological new year starts with the spring equinox? It makes a lot more sense than the new year startig in winter. I hope it brings you lot of blessings and that you get a chance to finally rest and recollect yourself. Enjoy the nice weather if you can. Thank you for reading my blog and I hope you also enjoy the new theme. ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧

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I have no idea what I'm doing but it's fun

What the hell has this blog come to guys. Whatever it is I'm having more fun than I should >_> I gotta go to work in a couple of hours but I feel the need to waste my time before going because I'm bored LOLOLOL. I feel like I'm doing too much and absolutely nothing at the same time. I wanted to post on instagram but it's been so long since I had my own account, like, posting pictures of normal stuff feels odd for some reason..? Even if I want to? I don't know. I have a lot on my mind lately and work is lowkey draining me but I need to keep going, sigh. In my lat post I said I want to take some time to redesign this blog but I have no idea how to do it. I don't know much about HTML and making it work on this layout without messing it up is even harder. Crazy how I said ''oh I don't know when I'll be posting again'' and now that I started working away I'm posting more than I did when I had nothing much to do LOL. Jk, I was too busy going crazy over art. Speaking of which, it's like the first time ever where I don't feel extremely guilty for not drawing, posting etc. That's crazy. Like yeah, I'm 19 bla bla bla. And so what??? It doesn't even matter and THANK GOD I understood it before completely losing my mind. And I'm glad I'm taking a break from art. I think I got rejected by another convention, and I said ''I think'' because they didn't even take the time to tell me no LOL. Very professional, guys. Very. Professional. And I don't even care anymore, I liked the idea some time ago but drawing for the sole purpose of selling merch of someone else's art in an artist alley is extremely sad. I feel like the art community in general has been making me feel sad and drained. And lonely. Not trying to drag anyone but it's true. So yeah. I'm still drawing but I'm trying to approach it differently. Case closed, now look at this image I found on Pinterest. u.u this is me LOL.

This is the energy I'm bringing into the year I swear. Anyways, my search for a digital camera is still in progress and I didn't find anything. Most of them are either overpriced or broken. High quality pictures are pissing me off, they just don't give the vibe I'm looking for. I'm tempted to use my old iPad camera, get myself an iPhone 4 for like 10 bucks on Vinted or just be a normal person and let things be. Taking pics with my flip phone is still an option. >_> Sigh... I'm free tomorrow, being my one and only free day of the week I need to make the most of it and do another ten thousand things. The most interesting thing I can tell you right now is that I got an YSL mascara and it's the best one I've ever used in my whole life. I don't even know what I'm making this post for and I don't care. I posted another cover on YouTube, certified classic prob 10 times worse than the first one but oh well. I'd have to get paid to care. Also, my first video has reached an unexpected amount of views and even though they'rre not a lot I'm still speechless, because what do you mean more than 4 people watched that??? That's crazy I swear. ANYWAYS HERE IT IS LOLOLOL. No one is allowed to make fun of me because I'm already doing it, sorry. 

Back to whatever I was saying, I'll post some fragrances reviews soon and I also want to show some of the cool visual kei magazines I got. My friend Ari (check out her blog or I'm coming over your house to spray a whole Victoria's Secret body mist on your pillow) got them for me as a Christmas gift, I wanted to post pictures for so long and kept forgetting about it. Amazing. I think it's time to do it because I want to keep them in my archive PROPERLY. u.u Ok, I think I'm done. I've gotta go now, before it gets late. Thank you for reading whatever this was, I need to be stopped before I start having too much fun and turn this blog into a whole mess... muahahaha. It's already fucked up, I fear. Whatever. I can't take myself so seriously anymore. What have you guys been up to recently? Let's chat!

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Blog revamp?!

 I'm in a RUSHHHH I've gotta go to work in like 40 minutes and I still have ten thousand things left to do!!! But let me just take 10 minutes of my time to waste so that I can write this post quickly LOL. Yeah, it doesn't need that much of an explanation. I revamped this blog. For obvious reasons since I stopped talking about j-fashion a year ago, basically. I'm still in the process of adjusting it but I think it will look like this for a good while. I named it after my fav album from the GazettE, stacked rubbish. LOL. But also it kind of fits the whole theme, so. I've also decided to create a new instagram account where I'll post all my personal stuff. Basically this blog but without captions I think? I need a proper break from drawing and anything related to art and I switched to a personal ig (follow me for 10 years of good luck or I'm coming over your house tomorrow morning at five am) because seeing my art account everytime was obliterating my mental health. Let's leave it where it is for a little while before I go completely insane. However this won't stop me from uploading a picture of the last drawing on my sketchbook eheheh. I can't believe I completed a 300 pages sketchbook in 9 months, that's a record for me. I could've done it a lot faster if I didn't have 3 jobs. 

Took this pic with my old phone because it's cooler. Peep the Hello Kitty charm eheheh. Guys I literally CAN'T wait to show you some new tattoos, I'm waiting for my new cartridges to come in and I got the worst kind of zoomies lately I swear I got a hundred thousand things to do and I'm hyper LOLOLOL. Everyone who's forced to be around me these days knows it and they're all suffering the consequences. Hi, guys. If I keep my eyes wide open another couple of days I'll have to schedule a botox appointment for my 21st birthday because of the stupid wrinkles I'll get from having my eyebrows raised 24/7 so that I don't like an absolute bitch. ಠಿ_ಠ Anyways. Moving on. Since I'm losing my mind and I'm incapable of being embarassed (hoping the universe won't take this as a sign to test me because I'll literally CRY) I decided to take a chance for the sake of camp and posted this thing on YouTube becaause I need to feel something and doing nonsense stuff works best. Don't ask me ANYTHING I literally have no idea what the hell is going on I can't even sing?? Don't take me seriously. Not that it's hard to do but still. Are digital footprints really a thing? Can a girl be silly in peace?! ToT

This post is a mess I'm leaving it like this. Hopefully I'll have some free time to dedicate to the new design and layout. >_> Thank you for reading whatever the hell this is. I'm still posting a gif because it feels wrong without it. 

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Random February dump

Hello. I'm in a rush, and this post is probably gonna turn out worse than expected (I refuse to proofread it, I'm too tired) but I'm writing now that I have a some free time left before I start working again ToT after the 12th I don't know how and when new posts will come out and I'd rather not neglect this blog since I put a lot of effort into keeping it active. I apologize in advance because pictures will mostly be vertical, sigh. This post wasn't planned. I need to get myself a digital camera!!

As I said in my last post, the 15th of February was my birthday. I'm 19 now, woooo (literally nothing changed  I don't know how I used to think that 19 was ''old'' that's crazy) but stupid stuff aside., let me show you the cutest birthday cake ever.

I LOOOOVED it, eating it felt like a crime. Look at that. Too cute sniff sniff... I did so many things in february I quite literally feel like I forgot all of them because as soon as I finished one thing I went onto the other one without even processing what I did first. I worked day and night for a contest to (hopefully) win a scholarship and I was so absorbed in it I didn't sleep for one week. Crazy how this blog started out to talk about Lolita fashion and ended up with me blasting useless infos about my life on the internet but my main goal is to have something to search for on archive.org in like 10 years and ask myself what the hell I was thinking when I wrote that, so bear with me.

Besides my birthday, I started tattooing again. My tattoo machine was on sale for two months without success so I took it as a sign to start again and honestly? I don't regret it. Tattooing has allowed me to explore art styles I've always loved but never actually developed because I didn't really know what to do with them, LOL. But I'm having lots of fun, I'm drawing a lot of cool designs but I hope to post them when they're finally on someone's skin, ehehe. This is a freehand tattoo I did on my mom who volunteered as my test subject. And by ''freehand'' I mean that the stencil didn't turn out the way it was supposed to and I just ran with it >.> probably not the best idea I think but it's cute!!

I think I already said this in my previous post but I did another tattoo on someone else. Currently have no pics of it but whatever. So far these are all the ones I did, I'm taking my time because I want to practice a lot, of course. This one was the first one I did on fake skin, I really like tbh.

Again, I apologize for taking pictures like this but this post wasn't planned ToT I really want to get a digital camera soon. And speaking of cameras, look at what I got! To be fair it's a gift from my dad, but I LOOOOVE IT!!! It's so cute sigh... I always wanted a flip phone but this one's even cuter. I mainly use it to listen to music but I love taking pictures on it. Of course quality isn't exactly the best but I gotta say that I expected a lot worse so I'm super happy LOL.

I've also been taking lots of video recently and I'm having lots of fun with it. I still need to figure out some settings but it's okay. It may sound silly, but I missed doing things just for fun LOL. 

I haven't been doing that great recently so I'm sorry if the quality of my content seems to be going down. I'm trying my best ( ╥ ᴗ ╥) but at least I'm still drawing. Even if I'm not posting anything, I'm trying to take a step back and start doing it for myself first and to be honest, I'm having fun. 

I have no idea what this is but I like it more than I should. I have nothing interesting to talk about tbh. I haven't been sleeping AT ALL and I've been doing the same stuff as always so nothing's new. Drawing, studying, reading etc.. and I'm not really going out that much  ToT during the little time I got to spend with my friends I took zero pictures. So yeah, this was pretty much everything for this post. I'll leave you with one of my fav songs and hopefully I'll have something more interesting to write about in the next one. I wanted to review some fragrances I tried in the past month but it's better to do it in a separate post, so that I can do it properly. u.u 

As always thank you for reading and keeping up with my silly stuff. I'm always super glad to see friends and mutuals interacting with my content. I can't believe this blog is 2 years old already! What about you, how are you guys doing? What's your favorite song lately? I want to listen to something new

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